This is awful

I shouldn't even be typing now. It makes it worse you see, much worse. Many years ago I got sick in a similar way to now - painful prostate etc. Within a few months of that I got RSI and arthritis in my hand. When the prostate cleared up so did the arthritis. So now my prostate is causing trouble again and I have the arthritis back, worse than ever. I have tried to play keyboards tonight to record a track for my next album but my fingers won't move and are so painful. Added to that, my hearing seems to be deteriorating rapidly too.

If I lose the ability to play and hear music there is nothing left for me. Forgive me for feeling sorry for myself.